Random

I have had the last three days off, it has been nice. But it has also given me way too much time to think. I read somewhere that when a person is around running water, their thoughts are clearer. Well, when I am at home the water is constantly running it seems like. The washing machine is going, the dishwasher, kids playing in the faucet, or someone in the shower. And if it's me that is taking a shower, don't expect to see me reappear for at least 25 minutes! I love the effect running water has on my thoughts. Sometimes  I jump out of the shower and jot down the wonderful ideas that just came to me. Most of the thoughts  have been completely random lately. Like, if I died, who would go to my funeral. Or if I died, what would people have to say about me (that actually crosses my mind a lot). If I ever became famous, the press would have tons of dirt to dig up on me! That would keep them busy for a while. RANDOM! Then I think, who thinks these things?

I have been second guessing myself also. Do I really want to go into welding? Is this what I want for the rest of my life? Or am I just scared again. I never complete anything anymore. I know that I would love to be a nurse, but I can not get a license because I am a convicted felon; even though the charge is almost 10 years old. I would like to be a journalist. But going to school for that doesn't exactly guarantee a job. I would like to be a psycologist, oh but wait, I hated my psych classes! I really just need to stop second guessing myself and just throw myself into something. The first day of classes is January third, welding it is.

I can not believe that soon there will be hard liquor available in more that state ran liquor stores soon. I have to believe that my foundation is built and is strong enough, that I will stay clean. See what I mean, random thoughts.

I am reading a book called "Write It Down, Make It Happen" by Henriette Anne Klauser. This is my third time reading it. AMAZING!!! I highly recommend it!